Who I Am Not Was

Time flies when we are having fun and accomplishing some amazing goals that help me work through the barriers of self-defense mechanisms that used to leave me feeling defeated and insecure. The insanity of trauma and thrill-seeking has stunted my emotional maturity. The spiritual tools and principles have taken me past the patterns of self-destruction of being an inner angry critic where nothing would fully satisfy me. This rapid cycling of up and down really was a ride that I thought was impossible to stop. Thank God for the humor that the powers to be can restore this human to sanity when I am receptive to the code of a different way to exist. What has happened is a transformation to a state of self-love and acceptance that brings me away from a self-centered, individualistic consumer society where capitalism rules my energy field. There is no way around the pain without feeling it and dealing with it or it will deal with you and own your energy. To my deception and lack of self-reflection, life was always a task, a chore, something to finish. The lens of the doer and the overachiever was always busy with something and had no time to relax. I am grateful today, I have created a lifestyle with plenty of time to chill and be with myself. This freedom of a life that was once taken for granted holds great value in resonance with my authentic heart. Wrapped up in the distraction of the web of lies, this place was overlooked, for it was foreign and lost in the shadows. As the light of your wisdom brightens this new path I allow and just be the creation you manifest in and as me as the unity of balances feminine and masculine. The honor is a pleasure that you gift me each and every day, to be honest with your form of unconditional love so I can let go of the illusion of who I thought I was and be who I was always trying to find.

©Art Gaia Frazee 10/24/2024 9:56 PM