Behind The Hidden Masks Lies And Pain

I think of all the pain we all have to go through and how it forges us into strong and courageous people. Some people do not make it through these hard times, and their journey is just as meaningful as anyone else who lived a long life. As there is no end to the timeline, we get to explore so many options in so many different lifetimes as different beings, and the possibilities are limitless. It is completely realistic to want to stay in this body because of all the work we have done and all the things we have accomplished to make our lives feel complete and whole. The familiarity and comfort are signs that we need to move on to new things, for we grow with the challenges we face, and the darkness is our revelation to move forward into the light of love. If you knew how amazing you were, the pride might devour the wholesome side, for there is no humility when you know it all. I have suffered from this for many years, and it has caused some stunts in my growth. I was disconnected from the unity by wearing the masks of fear with arrogance and pride to hold my image that I had it all under control. This I found out later when I took a look at my trauma and how I was afraid to let anyone see my feelings of sadness and low self-esteem. I thought I had to hold this image of knowing everything that I did not want anyone to know how alone I felt and that I was afraid if you found me out, you would think I was pathetic and weak. I am learning every day to be vulnerable and be my true self who has feelings and knows I am flawed and just as human as anyone else. I am grateful I do not have to tire myself out by being someone who I am not anymore, and it sure feels free to be just me that was already the way I was meant to be. God blessed me with more self-awareness because It feels terrible, but most of the time, it feels phenomenal. The pain is what makes the pleasure truly worthwhile.

©Art Gaia Frazee 7/31/2024  11:11 PM