Fear Is A Funny Ally

As I sit in the quiet room of myself I get to feel all the sensitive parts of me. I am not secure when I sit in the mind of figuring things out. It can be quite painful to live in this place of fear and yet I still find myself here. I guess there is part of me that still enjoys the pain and I want to let this side of me go. At least today I recognize when I am wallowing in my suffering so I can make the change. I hope someday the shame will no longer control me. Maybe I am still a bit naive to think that things will be different but I keep trying my best and have hope. It has been hard to find a voice that is authentic and not overbearing. I know now I have a choice to stay in the recovery process and this I am grateful for. Your dreams are not impossible it just can feel that way when you have never been able to achieve it to believe it. It may take lots of effort to find this way to accomplish this big task. I ask for guidance and strength to help me through when I want to give up and avoid the discomfort of feeling like a failure. The only way for me to fail is not to give it my best and to not give too quickly. Life is full of opportunities to try new things and explore this realm of experience. When I challenge my fears it feels so amazing after I walk through it. Fear is funny because it stunts our growth to some amazing things that lay on the other side of this energetic roadblock. I am doing my best to challenge myself to things I am afraid of and things I have never tried. The mind says I will not enjoy it but you do not know until you go through the action. This force of movement can help our lives feel full of excitement so we don’t get too comfortable in complacency. I confront my fear as an ally for it teaches me and it feels better than running and hiding from it.

©Art Gaia Frazee 6/28/2024 9:55 PM