My Temple Is Love

Today I celebrate seven years clean in recovery with no use of mind and mood-altering substances. It is also my little brother Steve’s birthday and so I get to celebrate two amazing gifts of life. I thank you Higher Power, my brother, my recovery family, and all the community that have helped me get this far, and helped me grow into the person I am today. It has been fun, challenging, happy, sad, despairing, easy, hard, and sometimes just so uncomfortable, but no matter what I don’t pick up that drug because I know that this choice will lead me to death. I play the tape to the end and remember how my last day of using was and there was nothing there for me or anyone else that would help anyone become more loving. I have an amazing purpose today and that is to help others stay clean and happy by being my authentic self. This radical self-expression through honesty and willingness helps me understand how to help in the best way possible. Sometimes the best response to help in a situation is to do nothing and observe and empathize and see how you are feeling and know where you are as you observe unbiased in your heart space. This takes some practice for someone like me who always wants to help fix things. I am not any person’s manager anymore as I left that part of me behind in step five as I worked with the defects of character. I allow you to find your solution for I refuse to rob you of the gift of doing it yourself. This is how we build self-esteem by learning from our place of strength within us by not expecting others to do the work for us. This is the integrity I stand with today as I am free to do the spiritual research so I can become the person I want to be each day. I make this choice in every moment to help myself become more loving and respectful of my body and mind as is a sacred temple. Sometimes I dirty the temple so I surrender back to God’s love for the solution for I am lost without your wisdom and grace guiding me back to my truth.

©Art Gaia Frazee 6/18/2024 11:22 PM