Magic Feelings Of Clarity

Feeling thankful for all the colors of all the amazing butterflies that are part of this beautiful conservatory. Happy to have the time to spend on things that fascinate and stimulate my creativity and my recovery. There is plenty to be grateful for and this is definitely one of them. I practice taking my time to enjoy all the aspects of the day today. God has blessed me with another chance at life today and am here to say thank you for this opportunity to express myself as well as be myself. This feeling of heavy sadness keeps weighing on my heart. I feel alone and lonely and wish I could be with someone but now is the time to grieve and process. I know this will pass but feels like this time it is taking forever. I pray and take some time to feel and cry and let it all out. I no longer distract myself from the pain I just be with it and talk and write about it. I have people to share with today but sometimes I hold on to it. I am doing better at turning it over to God so I can move through it in the best way possible. I am also attending a meeting to help me feel apart of something. I remember that I am not creating any wreckage today which is such a blessing. I forget sometimes how bad it was before I came into a 12-step program. The problems I have today is not nearly as bad as my previous one’s. I am grateful to be clean and loving myself the best I can today.

Art Gaia Frazee 2/22/2024 7:48 Pm